Blame it on my soontobe 2 month old daughter, Abilene:

There have been brief precious sessions, after baby and mama call it a day, quick sketches and plans for bigger future things. I’ve signed-up again for Pro Arts’ Open Studios in hopes the deadline’ll get my scissors and brushes moving more vehemently.
On Hiatus, Sortof
Luka’s (again) & Dual Citizenship
Once again, the nice folks at Luka’s are showing my art. Luka’s is truly a cornerstone of the recent Oakland renaissance, having opened at the corner of West Grand and Broadway back before this zone took-on its current flavor. Back in the early days, most everything surrounding Luka’s was pretty unsavory.

Though the room is dim and the walls are dark red, I feel lucky to continue showing work at Luka’s. They support local artists by offering a commission-free venue to display and sell work, and their diverse crowds mean lots of different eyeballs might be peeping the art. Luka’s is the shiz!
Also of note, I’m now residing three hours up the coast in Mendocino, CA. Slowly setting up a small studio space up there, but am continuing the keep my space at Swarm Studios in Oakland. This duality presents interesting dynamics in my process; the energies going into my art-making seem dependent on where I am or have been. If I’ve been in the Town for a few days, city energy will play-into the art I’m making in Mendo. Same is true when I work in Oakland after being on the coast. I think it should prove an interesting catalyst for creating. Time will tell.
diluted voices and organic progressions
As uszh, been grinding the ol mental cogs trying to understand my creations. I tend to oscillate between thinking deeply on it and glazing over it. Of course, the truth lies somewhere between.
I’m fairly convinced that there is too much great art in the world for any one voice to be creatively omnipotent, yet concurrently we artists are all shining brightly within ourselves, sometimes so brightly we feel as though we’re the only star in the universe. It’s important for me to remember that, taken as a whole, our voices are muddled and diluted, so much so that future generations will be at a loss when attempting to discern which art bullseyes the truths of these times.
Now that I’ve had some time away from my most recent work, I’ve realized that I can’t succinctly describe what they all mean, neither individually or as a body, since these works are not an end-product, but merely one step in an organic progression of work. Will I ever be able figure myself out? Does my art actually mean anything?
Up at Buzz Gallery – August
I’ll be showing most of my newest work in August at Buzz Gallery – 2318 Telegraph Ave in Oakland. Stop in and say hey if you’re out checking August’s Murmur.

Not much new work happening this past month, too much “real life” going on right now. Need time to process and settle, then will likely bust out a bunch of fresh. Stay tuned…
New Work up in SF The Mission

...... MacArthur Maze Burnout ........
I’ve got a bunch of new work hanging at Sundance Coffee, 24th and Harrison in sunny SF. If you’re in the area, drop in for some fair trade organic coffee and Lovekin art.
Communing with the public
These past two weekends I participated in Pro Arts’ annual East Bay Open Studios. Over 400 artists open their studio doors to a steady trickle of folks out on self-guided tours. Exhausting! but in all a good experience.

........ getting ready for open studios .........
Once the art was done and hung, it felt good to finally stop moving. To be honest, leading up to the first weekend, I was dealing with a hearty helping of anxiety. The thought of communing with the public over my artwork seemed downright terrifying. Alas, it was good to talk about stuff.

............. so tidy! .................
Rather than park myself inside my studio, I tended to hang back and watch as people approached my space. It was interesting to see initial reactions—my art, it seemed, tended to either draw people in or push them away. Of those drawn in, some even stayed and surveyed for several minutes. These are the folks that I decided to approach and engage. And from them—through talking to them—I learned more about my art than fretting over this blog has taught me. Thanks people!
Spotlight on the backgrounds
I’ve been prattling-on about my collage critters without saying anything about my background paintings. Today I’m wondering why?
Maybe because painting and drawing are more comfortable for me than collage. I have a deeper history with brushes, pencils, and pens. Paper, scissors, and glue are relatively new, introduced to me just a few years ago by collage-maker extraordinaire Greg Turner.
What can I say about my paintings? I like color. Here’s an old one:

This was done before I made the switch from acrylic to oil paint, during a particularly productive period. I get nostalgic sometimes about those days. Acrylics dry so fast! Painting sessions even only a few hours apart are totally separate entities, whereas with oils, many days can go by between sessions, and the previous layers are still wet, still in play, with plenty to say about any new brushstrokes. Here’s a new one:

To be sure, the mindsets for collage-making and painting are mutually exclusive. Lately, painting has been something best attempted earlier in the day, when my energy is fresh and my mind uncluttered with daily debris. Nighttime seems better suited for my collage making, as it proves a good way for me to try process what I experienced during the day. For me, collage is a good way to still my mind. Conversely, painting tends to stir things up up there. But actually, this trend is only the most current among my personal tendencies; ask me again in a few months (or minutes) and I might tell you just the opposite!
To distill: my current practice is for paintings to serve as backdrops for collage entities. Is this a commentary of sorts? Could be! Honestly, I hadn’t yet tinkered with this equation. No time like now: People and things are everywhere in the world-at-large… Sometimes a certain person or thing leaps away from the clutter of everything else, momentarily attaining a surprising individuality… I’m interested in these instances of transcendence! Subjectivity! What a gift…
Identity and Individuality
Just in the past week, my collage creatures have begun to change in a subtle way: I’m seeing recognizable faces appear on the usual Frankenstein bodies. Many of the faces belong to people inhabiting the orbits of current popular culture, celebrities and public figures, politicians.

Bin Fridge Magnet Laden
As I make them, my gut reaction is ‘oh wow, this is so funny – Osama’s got lipstick and big hands and Bob Lanier legs!’ but a deeper meaning has surfaced today when I was reading something about Dylan.
Bob Dylan’s thoughts on individuality struck a chord in me. He has ideas about the importance of finding one’s own character, that quintessential American quest for true identity. Dylan seems to think it’s very important that each of us stand totally and unequivocally apart from our peers.
It seems that putting popular faces on my creatures lends them a recognizability, a unique identity, a singular individuality. I definitely agree with Bob on this: We Americans, as a culture, yearn for this separateness, yet technology’s onslaught demands distractions which essentially rob from us ourselves. This modern predicament is, I think, one of things I’m expressing through my creatures. I’ve got disparate parts of people re-assembled grotesquely, now with recognizable faces, changed from something familiar and typical into another thing only vaguely so.
Ultimately, I’m questioning identity itself, and what seems to be a culture-wide search for individuality.
Limbs & Faces = F-U-N
However which way and why I make these creatures, one thing’s becoming increasingly clear: I have lots of fun creating ‘em!

yoga pose piece in progress
And really, I’m not sure I need more of a reason than f-u-n…

wardrobe malfunction?
Part of me gets neurotic about having more of a reason, just in case I ever encounter someone who cares enough to need a deeper meaning. I suppose, however, that were they to eventually appear, this hypothetical someone would create their very own meaning.
Why do I posses such a need to decipher any deeper truths in my art? Perhaps I should be content to simply wait until someone else discovers their own truths, and not fret so much over it…
At the very least, I’m having a swell time putting these figures together. Is it so important to take it a step further, and figure out why?
Obsessing over WHY
Thought it’d be good to try and explain what I’m doing here. Not that anyone asked, but that’s sort of the point. This thing’s mostly for me, and hopefully will become a tool to help me understand my art better. I plan on blathering relentlessly about art, mine and others’.
I was once an avid journaler, chronicling my antics faithfully in a big stack of notebooks. I’ve since fallen away from the habit, and by writing these entries have begun to remember how my words help me better hash out my thoughts. Sure, it’s hopelessly selfish gibber-jabber, self-serving and tedious. I might be better off scribbling in another notebook, keeping all this private. For now, though, I’ll keep tinkering and thinking out-loud, trying to figure out where the things I make come from, and what, if anything, they mean.

...........hunkering-down in a bunker................